I’m sooooo kilig* (is there an English term for kilig?). I may not be Barbie-looking like most of the Belloti dolls, but I feel so blessed for being the first and only Filipina posing for Sandrine Belloti Couture.
If you check out her previous models, I know, ang papayat nila! Lol. I still wonder sometimes how did I fit into her size 0 dress. Lol. Nevertheless, I’m grateful for this opportunity and to the team behind this photoshoot (I’ll post some BTS in Instagram).
I suddenly remember when I was young (I think I was 6 or 7 years old), I was filling out few pages of an autograph book (diba uso naman dati yun?!) and one of the fields I answered –
What’s your ambition?
To be a supermodel and Miss Saigon_________________________________ _______________________________________________________________
Toinks. Haha. I’m giggling now. Twenty years later, I didn’t become what I wrote in that autograph book (lalo na yung Miss Saigon!) but I am more than thankful for all the blessings that God has given me.
In life, we sometimes think, “I wish I’m like him/her,” or “buti pa sya”, until maging Bitter-Ocampo lang ang peg as we compare ourselves with others, especially with the world’s current social media trend (pag gising palang sa umaga, in your face na agad ang mga photos! Lol). Sadly, we tend to forget how blessed we really are as we browse through the photos and see how perfect their lives seem to be and eventually letting negative thoughts kill our joy, our confidence, our dream, our personality. We kinda start focusing on what others have instead of what we have, who we have. I’m not against social media, in fact, I find it really useful, I enjoy using it. I think it is totally okay to connect, it is totally okay to press the ‘like’ button as we admire our peers and it is totally okay to be inspired by others (oh, I am inspired by @befitpics posts and Miranda Kerr’s body, and uh, my list goes on – I’m sure you do too).
I just hope that we realise, or if you already knew, remind ourselves, that each person (that’s you and me) is wonderfully made. (For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well; Psalm 139:13-14). Things may not work out like what we always wanted. I’ve experienced a lot of failures, disappointments and not-really-so-happy moments but I believe that everything happens for a reason. We are also called to live a life with purpose. Pastor Brendan of Hillsong Paris shared last April 14, “you’ve got a life to live, a place to accomplish”. And he goes on with, “let there be a sense of living.. life is a choice.. and choose what life you want to live”. Amen to that. Let’s choose to live a life with confidence knowing that God loves us so much. He knows our heart’s desires “and this is the confidence that we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will he hears us. And if we know that he hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of him (1John 5:14-15)”. If things didn’t work out like that way you want them to be, remember that “for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28)”. Instead of comparing and being bitter about things, let’s choose to be thankful always. This is one of the key things I’ve learned in the past years – the more thankful I am, the happier I am. Through good times or bad times, I thank God. And lastly, let’s choose to live a life full of love – loving God, loving ourselves and loving others.
P.S. Thanks to JM Ronquillo (HMUA and introducing me to Sandrine Belloti); Sandrine Belloti (Stylist); Ronald Suelo (Photographer); Rocky Torre (Assistant); Mark Baron (Di sya kasali sa shoot pero wala lang, lol. He inspires me)